I am having a hard time tonight :( feeling a little down about
lacie. Tonight was the Halloween party at church, and instead of
lacie enjoying herself.. .. she hated it. She screamed and cry ed almost the entire time.
My mind goes back to earlier this year when all day everyday my mind was consumed with teaching Lacie. I had so much that I needed to get her caught up on that's all I could think about. When I was teaching
lacie that my name is mama she was about 2 or a few months after her 2end birthday. I would take her finger and point it at myself and say mama and then take her finger and point it at herself and say Lacie. My heart just breaks thinking about that. To this day that is the only was she uses my name.. she doesn't call for me when she needs me... I
dont ever hear her say Mama .. mama... ..
mamam...~! Or mama look as she points to something. why? why? cant she do this? When she
see's other people that she knows she will say their names... but never mine? Unless of coarse she is just playing the name game..
ie* this is a drink, this is a shirt.., Noah, Lacie, Mama, Daddy. Why cant she tell me whats on her mind. Not just a one word conversation. My heart is breaking.. I am tired of people with good intentions who do not understand what I am going threw.. tell me that everything is
ok. I know that Lacie has came along way. I mean she started the diet back in late January.. early February and she couldn't speak one word.. not one. she could not wave good bye or hello. she wouldn't point at anything ever. she couldn't even play patty cake. .. and she was getting close to being 2 years old. I know we have made some serious progress this past year.. .. my heart just breaks when I see her struggle.. and it comes so easy to other children. .. If I hear another mother complain that they wish their kids would stop calling their name.. mommy mommy.. .. mommy.. I think I might scream. That is a blessing.. It is a blessing to be called mommy.
Well, I pumped this morning ... and put it into the sippy cup! Noah did like it and did well considering it was his first time! But .. when he started getting sleepy.. and was really ready to eat he wanted to nurse. I wanted to post some pictures of him nursing because he is just so sweet ... he just snuggles himself close to me.. and holds on to me..like I am the best thing in life. It makes me feel so good to be able to have the special time with him.. It is an incredible experience... I love it.. and I love Noah.. I am in no hurry to get him to use the sippy. :) 
